There is a stillness, a peacefulness that sits in our hearts. It’s not something we create or conjure up. It just IS there, behind all the the other stuff that we do create. I’ve recently become very present, you may say more acquainted with this power. It is so powerful the PEACE inside our hearts. The way it guides us, the way it heals us, the way it commands beautiful direction, the way it stills us so we can become present to what each moment is trying to reveal.
About 6 months ago, I had this crazy injection of peace and stillness, following an invitation by my partner to pause and “do some research” on things before deciding it was the right choice. It was so powerful, the underlying message behind the words, that my whole being started to quiet down and then I was paused. It’s like some greater force of life flowed through the words spoken to me and took over. While his intention may have just been to encourage research for good reason, the message hit me much deeper. For weeks something inside, kept pausing me. Before every single thing I did, this micro pause kept happening and tuning me into my heart and making me aware of whether or not the next thing I was about to do really served the moment…really served all of me and the people around me. I’ve never experienced this in my life at this level. It was like a greater force of Love took over and my mind had no say. It was a totally embodied experience. I was being paused over and over and over again. Each moment aware of why and what I was doing, or questioning it with spaciousness.
Imagine every little choice you make throughout the day, all the little habits and routines that have become just that, unconscious patterns that run you. Imagine if you injected a conscious pause before all of them and something in your heart pulled you in a direction which lead the very next choice. Image the power of even the smallest pause before you swipe your phone open, a pause that made you wake up to if this really was what that peaceful voice in your heart was asking for?
I was still, I became full of genuine peacefulness. My actions seemed to honour my time and my life more and more. I began to love what was in front of me. I started asking more questions like “How can I honour the gift of Life I have been given today?” and letting the GPS of my heart guide my actions.
Like all experiences, this did not last. It was temporary in its fullness. I found myself longing for that spontaneous peace overriding my habitual mind and forcing me to see clearly how all my choices offer an opportunity for PEACE. But I know that holding on does not let my heart guide me. So I let go and I’ve done my best to honour what was revealed to me in that experience as best I can…
Until, yesterday, while ironically making a post for social media, this question arouse “ What does the peace within your heart show you?” For a moment I felt this warmth come over me looking at the image I just made with this very question. My mind started to conceptualise it…but something inside pulled my attention to my heart. Then this feeling took over again like I was being directed by the question and it took me back to that beautiful pause, that heart with stillness and clarity.
I really can’t explain it with words. I’m aware now that the power of our choices, is ironically not found in words, not in answers, but in questions and experiences. How can I honour the gift of life I have been given today? What does the peace within my heart show me? What is the most important thing in this moment? Then, the almost wordless direction that our being moves in to respond to these questions can be so simple and yet so profound.
Then Today as I moved through my day, there was this awareness again, like the pause I had months ago, but a bit different than before. A beautiful awareness of when I was in my mind too much, thinking about a should or should not, and it was replaced by a felt sense in my heart asking “What does the peace in my heart want to show me right now? “…With that question my being became still. I put all my plans aside and took a breath. I looked up into the cafe and I suddenly saw beauty all around me. I was present to what was in front of me, and I was smiling. I was in fact smiling so much, yet so unconsciously, that a man sitting near me at the cafe asked twice, “What are you so happy about?”… I was almost shocked, because my mind had no answer, there was no mind created reason. It was somehow just my natural state, seeing clearly through the eyes of the peace in my heart. When it was time to move on and experience then next moment, different and still beautiful, I did and I drove home. I can’t explain the power of this question, or predict how you will experience it if you choose to ask it. But there is a beautiful gift in not answering with your mind, not answering with words.
What does the PEACE within YOUR HEART show you?